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you know about the voices that speaks in your head?i listen to them somtimes. most of the times. sometimes they tell me good things. sometimes they make me wish for bad things. |
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And then I said.................
I am listening to Shining Collection. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFYEA. The only time when Shindou actually FEELS like a rocker and not some blathering gay idiot. Oh, and Alissa invited me out to go watch Kitaros' live performance at Genting. At first, I thought she was talking about Gegege no Kitaro but then I remembered about the human-being-Kitaro-who-isn't-a-manga-character. Mmm yeah. I was tempted to accept the offer, won't lie, but Genting is just too far for me. And there's that whole emotional side of things as well. It's complicated. I should probably clear things up with her first before we go off on any further funfunjoyjoy stuffs. And Alissa, if you're reading this, give me a call, babe ;) People have been jokingly questioning my sexuality, turning it into some kind of game -___- It's... funny I guess. And tiring -___- Well, I can't exactly blame them considering the nonsense that spouts out of my mouth, and the way I act sometimes. I can honestly say that I'm straight, though. Now I'm listening to Sleepless Beauty and by God, it's-it's- not as awesome as Shining Collection. *switches tracks* Back to whatever nonsense I was on. Admittedly, I don't feel totally comfortable being a girl. I hate having to scrutinise myself in front of the mirror each day and point out every single imperfection there is before coming to terms with it and just simply thank Allah for who I am. My legs are weird, granted, but I've walked using them my entire life and they have never failed me so far. Alhamdulillah. My face is pockmarked, granted, but I imagine my facial epithelium is struggling with it just as much as I am. I'm flat, without a hint of a curve and little feminine traits, but I fit into most clothes fairly easily. Alhamdulillah. I'm still no Victoria Secret model though. I'm just me. And that's alright. I'm not out to impress any guys or girls out there, but simply myself. I've been thinking about this kind of things lately, so it might have pushed me to dress up a little bit more than usual on Friday. Hahaha, well, it was sort of fun. But I don't think I'll be doing much of that. But frankly speaking, the next time somebody who has never walked with these legs of mine criticises them just one more time, I'll punch that person in the face. Or better yet, kick them in the crotch. Then we'll see just how cacat they are. On another note Shindou/Kotani Kinya just took over the mic from Ryuichi/Iceman AND DAMN THAT WAS AWESOME! Finals in two weeks and I've done jackshit. All I want to do right now is take my sisters' tablet and draw manly man fighting one another while screaming their TB-infested lungs out. Lights out mofo'. |